Fast: 2011

This fast has in a lot of ways been harder than last year, simply because I had it in my mind that 5 days is a pretty short fast. Now, while that is true, I shouldn't have approached things that way in my mind. So my intention now is to realize 'God, I have this time, and it actually is 5 full days in length, to focus on you." Basically, to have the same mentality I usually have when I fast.

This has also spilled over into general hunger and desire for food. Because I had it in my mind that food is coming relatively soon, the sacrifice of food hadn't really sunk into my thoughts yet. Well, I have to have that mentality because without it, I'm too stinking hungry! haha. I haven't honestly been all that hungry, but my mindset has not been anti-food like it should be. Fasting is a time of sacrificing food for God, and so much of that is not just the physical act of eating; it's the thought of eating, dwelling on food, etc. The more I put that aside, the more clearly I can focus on God because I'm worried about Him and not about food. Because really, if the point of fasting is to focus on God over anything else, you kind of kill the point when you're focused on food instead! haha.

So God, my prayer is for these next three days, each day I can come into it with the intention of focusing on you. You are my focus, and I want you moving in life for this year, and in my upcoming marriage.

May that be my focus, and yes, in good time food will be a part of my life again. For right now, I'm fully content sacrificing it for You.